Saturday, July 22, 2017

Starting New Projects: The Myth of the Blank Page



One of the most conflicting things that you can do as a writer is start something new.

There seems to be this kind of fable set up of THE BLANK PAGE as the writer's bogeyman of sorts. Now, in general, I tend to put a lot more time into revising endings than beginnings. But sometimes starting is the literal worst.

Take, for instance, the most recent novel that I wrote (the one I'm currently sending around to agents). When I started the project, it was third person from Celeste's point of view, straight-up (haha) YA queer literary. Then I started mostly from scratch when I realized it was falling flat, turning it into YA queer magical realism. Then I had to re-start it again because I realized that the voice was wrong and that it should've been first person from her POV and that it was going to be more heavily fantasy. Then, two-thirds of the way into what would become an actual first draft, I started adding in first person sections from Simone's POV, which then also had to be spliced into the beginning and middle in revisions. It took a lot for Strange High to figure out that it was a dual first person YA queer fairy tale.

More recently, I just started a new writing project. I've been working on a new collection of poems (collection #3, because I've been sending collection #2 out to publishers), and that's been great. But I've had a big, novel-shaped hole in my life. Of course, with a new daughter who wants to be cuddled 24/7 there's hardly a spare moment and, when there is, I do more frivolous things like eat or shower or buy the family groceries. I've been finding spare moments to write poems, but I haven't really touched fiction since I finished revising Strange High. Option #1: Go back to a novel idea that I really believe in and that I actually wrote 15,000 words of before switching to Strange High last year. Option #2: A recent nightmare that felt like an amazing novel idea. My feeling was that I'm young and can do both ideas--but one has to come first. As I'd like to maybe do the started novel for my dissertation in a couple of years, I decided to give this new idea a shot. And, last night, I managed to come up with character names and write the first 450 words (in addition to the plot idea that the nightmare gave me).

Now, maybe I'll leave the idea when I get 1,000 or 10,000 words in because it's not working. Maybe I'll switch to the other novel idea because I find that's what my heart is pulling me toward. This is what I'm talking about when I bring up how conflicting the start of a novel is. Sure, you could do whatever you want. You have that freedom. But you can do WHATEVER YOU WANT. It's the fear that I hear from my students sometimes when they're trying to find a thesis for their paper--How, in the wide world of paper ideas, do I just pick one? Where do I even begin?

So, for me, it's less that I can't figure out a good first line. (I actually think I'm pretty good at those.) It's more the total sense of uncertainty. Unless I do major planning first, I don't know these characters, I don't know where this is going, and it's not going to be done in one go of it. What's more, I don't even know if I'll like it enough to finish, or if I'll be able to sell it once the time comes. Uncertainty is one of the most uncomfortable things in the world for me and I really struggle with it.

Now, if I never wrote without a clear idea of every last detail of the entire project then I'd have to quit this gig and go find something where uncertainty wasn't in the job description. I find a way to do it. That doesn't make it a pleasant part of the process. I kind of just need to put my blinders on and push through the discomfort of uncertainty. It's knowing that, later, I'm going to really start getting into the groove of things and have fun with it that helps keep me going until things click into place. Ultimately, this makes it worth it.

Are you a writer, or a creator of any sort? What part of your creative process is least enjoyable for you? How do you soldier through anyway?

Thursday, July 6, 2017

Apparently I'm Popular in Germany (And Other Fun Stats)


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Thursday, June 22, 2017

Summer Reading

Hopefully you'll excuse my hiatus. My daughter was unexpectedly born on May 24th, so blog writing time has not really been a thing since we've gotten back from the hospital. I'll post when I can!


I thought it might be fun to put together a bit of a summer reading list. I'm going to count it from when my semester ended, and I'll look to what's highest up on my TBR list as well.

What I've Read So Far This Summer:
Disney Princess Storybook Collection (4th ed.)
The End of Magic, Amber Benson
Truthwitch, Susan Dennard
Corduroy, Don Freeman
The Story of Ferdinand, Munro Leaf

What I'm Currently Reading:

Legitimate Dangers: American Poets of the New Century, Edited by Micheal Dumanis and Cate Marvin
The Book of Goddesses & Heroines, Patricia Monaghan
Earth Power, Scott Cunningham

What I'd Like to Read:
Earth, Air, Fire, & Water, Scott Cunningham
Cunningham's Encyclopedia of Crystal, Gem, & Metal Magic
The Aguero Sisters, Cristina Garcia
The Complete Stories, Flannery O'Connor
Unfinished Stories of Girls, Catherine Zobal Dent
The Calliope Reaper-Jones series, Amber Benson
The Spellmason Chronicles, Anton Strout
Labyrinth Lost, Zoraida Córdova

This summer I want to get started on reading for my comp exam lists so that I know what I want to put on them ahead of time, so that's where a lot of my TBR is coming from. I almost certainly won't complete the list (money is a constraint, so I've got to check out what's in the local libraries and all), but this is the selection I'll have to choose from.

What have you guys read/are you guys reading/will you guys read this summer?

Saturday, May 6, 2017

How Do You Beat Writer's Block?


This is one of those questions that I get asked pretty frequently, probably because it's one of the most frustrating things for a writer to feel like they've come up against. I've had teachers say that they don't believe in writer's block because it makes it into this invincible entity. However, here is my response to how to beat writer's block (pulled from my author site's FAQ):

I don't like the term "writer's block."  I feel like it gives too much power to the idea.  Fear of the name only increases fear of the thing itself, according to some smart witch/wizard or another.  (Harry Potter references ftw.)  

My friend Ian talks about "refilling the well," which I think fits much better.  Think of the well as potential for creativity.  You've got lots of passion for a story, lots of ideas and all that fancy jazz.  The well is full.  Then you're 50,000 words into a novel and running on empty.  Your well needs refilling.  This will happen differently for each writer: some need to read their favorite book for the billionth time; others need to people watch; some need to watch their favorite television show or movie and think about its character arcs or themes; others need to write something shorter--poetry, maybe, or just some freewrite scribbles; others still need to get away from writing for a while, maybe by drawing or knitting or getting lost on Tumblr for a few hours.  Take the time to do this so you don't run yourself into the ground.  When you've refilled your creativity well, you can return to your project or start a new one, as the case may be, with a renewed zest for your craft.


I also took to the Creative Exchange Network on Facebook and to my Twitter to ask other writers for their perspectives. After all, not everyone responds to the same methods or writing processes. (In fact, that's pretty much one of the main tenants of my teaching philosophy. I'm pretty married to that idea.) Here's what other writers had to say:

Erin Sullivan: "by giving up on coherency and just stream of consciousness word vomit, or going through old work and revising that instead, or or thinking critically about what i like/dislike about a work i admire, or just being content to let myself zone out and a stare at the screen for awhile. my personal experience with writer's block is it being less 'i can't think of anything' and more 'i don't feel like thinking of anything'"

Joe Ginman: "go out, get a coffee and people watch. Something usually pops into my head while doing that"

Louie Land: "Personally, I've never been a fan of the whole "if you can't write, you can work" strategy because it seems like trying to just push the big boulder of writer's block out of the way. I'd much rather go around it. So, if the writing isn't inspired, I'll take a walk, or do the dishes, while continuing to be engaged with the work. I'm not abandoning the concept or problem at hand per se. Instead, I'm trying not to beat my head against the wall too many times. I'm getting away from my need to fill the page and weather the boulder away with my nonsense, and getting in touch with the work on a more intuitive level. So while I might be reading someone else's work instead of writing (or whatever it is I'm doing to help me see the forest instead of the trees), I'm doing so with an eye to get around whatever obstacle I'm facing, and when I've figured it out, I go back to the page feeling fresh."

Meg Gaertner: "I exercise my creativity in some other way--painting + dancing, for instance, help me get out of my head and more in touch with inspiration" Thank you to everyone who offered their advice! So how about you? What do you do to beat writer's block? Are there any ideas here that you're going to give a try the next time that it's plaguing you?

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

5 Places to Write

Sometimes you can get into a rut with writing. This can be for any number of reasons--stress at work, not feeling your current project, etc.

Or maybe your favorite writing spot is no longer accessible to you, be it because of construction at the coffee shop or your decision to move halfway across the country.

Alternatively, you might be looking for a fresh place to start a new project and really feel like you're marking the occasion by trying out somewhere new.

Whatever the case is, where we write and the conditions we write under can have a profound effect on our writing. We all have our preferences--Do you listen to music, have TV on in the background, or need absolute silence? Do you work better on a laptop or with pen and paper? Do you need the pressure of constrained writing time or like a leisurely pace to create as you will?

One of the major factors that come into play is, whether it's something that you've considered or not, location. Here are some ideas of places to try out if your current location has gone stale for you:

1. Nature



Nature can be accessed in a variety of ways under a variety of conditions. If you want more silence/white noise, you can trek out to the woods or a mountain or a secluded lake. If that's not your thing, or if that's a long journey for you to make, you could try a park, which may have other people's chatter and goings ons as either a drawback or a bonus depending on how you like to work. Types of nature vary as well, of course: Beach, forest, grassy field, lake, mountain, etc. etc., each with its own personality and potential to help you write.

2. Coffee Shop



Need people around to keep on target while writing? There are a number of options available to you: Dunkin' Donuts, a local brunch spot, your campus library, the used bookstore down the street, and so on. Each of those venues is going to have different benefits and obstacles depending on your own personal writing needs. (For example, I love writing at Dunkin' Donuts because of the white noise and the reinvigorating smell of coffee. However, that may be too chaotic for you and you may want the quiet and solitude of a library corner all to yourself instead.) One of the wild cards here, of course, is that you can never know how crowded and busy or empty and subdued a place will be on any given day, which is an x-factor that you'll have to play by ear.

3. Bar



Maybe chaos suits you. You might like the loud buzz of noise and a lot of activity going on around you--think your high school cafeteria. There are lots of options, of course, to achieve this--a bar, a crowded auditorium, the quad or student center of the local campus, a really busy waiting room, a train or bus station, wherever. Try out a few places with lots of traffic and high energy and see what helps your writing get going or continue.

4. Transportation



While I wouldn't recommend writing while driving (unless you use a voice recording system of some kind, I suppose), there are ways to write during travel. You can write as your husband drives you a few hours to a different state to see family. You can get out the old pen and paper on your flight to London. You can take a day trip on a train and bring your laptop with you. Sometimes the (constant) change in scenery can do you--and more specifically your writing--some good.

5. At Home



This may seem like the most obvious choice. There's a lot of benefit here. You can write any time that you want. You can create the conditions that you want--music or not, comfortable couch to sit on or a rigid desk, bright lights or dim lights. But maybe you have a kid (or four) at home who will demand your attention if you're around, or maybe you'll get distracted by household chores, or maybe it'll take longer to get your work done because your mind wanders more easily here. How well writing at home works for you is something that no one else can determine--only you know your circumstances and how you write best. However, if you've been writing at home a lot, it never hurts to switch things up every once in a while and test out some other options just for a change.

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So where's your favorite place to write? Any of these from the list that you might try out?

Thursday, April 13, 2017

My Favorite Books

As a writer, one of the most common questions that I get (aside from things like "What inspires you?" or "How do you beat writer's block?" or "But seriously, what's your day job?") is about my favorite books/authors. I think any list like this will, for me, be incomplete on some level. I'm guaranteed to forget some, and to finish reading one in three days that I decide belongs on here. But, keeping all of that in mind, here's a shout-out to some of my favorite books!

Of Bees and Mist, Erick Setiawan




This is my favorite book ever, bar none. I read it over winter break in December of 2015, back when I was visiting Rhode Island/the University of Rhode Island for the first time. It hits so many notes that are right up my alley--fantasy, gender dynamics, compassionate rendering of characters, stunning prose. I could go on and on about this one forever and, if you've ever asked me for a book recommendation, then I probably have. Here's my Goodreads review: "The fantastical elements build an enchanting world and the metaphorical truths make this a very human and resonant story. The language is lyrical and the characters dynamic. Meridia's life is in (quite a few) places heartbreaking, but I never stopped hoping she'd find peace. A beautiful novel."

The Beginner, Lynn Hejinian







This is my favorite book of poetry. The mastery of echoes is something I aspire to in my own work. If you can find a copy, I highly suggest picking it up and not only reading it but going back and rereading it to get the full potential out of it.

Graceling Realm Series, Kristen Cashore




This is another book (okay, series, really) that I've probably recommended you read if you sit still long enough. Each of the protagonists of the three books shows a different set of strengths as a female character. While I love all of these books, my favorite is Fire for a lot of reasons, not the least of which I think is the fact that I found the titular character the most natural to relate to on a personal level. If you love strong female characters (and not only in the ass kicking sense), fantasy, romance, adventure, or any combination of the above, this is a wonderful series to give a go.

Coven of Echo Park Series, Amber Benson




Two out of three of these books have been released, with the final installment coming this May. My review of book #1, Witches of Echo Park: "There is nothing more disappointing than when a book you've waited months for is no good. Luckily, Witches of Echo Park did not disappoint.

This book serves, at its core, as a eulogy for Eleanora. (No spoilers here: The book opens with her dying of cancer, which is why her grandniece, Lyse, returns to Echo Park in the first place.) Flashbacks allow the reader to get a real sense of some of the biggest moments of Eleanora's life, letting a plot that only covers maybe a week of present-day time delve deeper into decades worth of character development. We do not experience Eleanora only through Lyse's perspective, or Eleanora's friends, but through Eleanora herself--a major benefit of switching character points of view. If you love character-driven work, this is the book for you! The bulk of the present day plot seems to take place in the last 50 or so pages of the book. Much of the book is dedicated to character exploration, acquainting you with a whole cast of different kinds of women (anyone ranging from the girl who starts the book with a hangover to the mother of two who reads tarot cards to the pink-haired, leather-gloved woman who is anything but warm and fuzzy, except when it comes to her cats). 

Author Amber Benson shows reverence for the place, lingering on images of houses and landscapes as well as any opportunities to explore the culture of Echo Park. The prose is--simply put--beautiful without being self-involved or indulgent. Benson's lovely descriptions feel fresh and true and relatable. Overall, I highly recommend this book, the first in a trilogy (if I'm remembering that correctly) that you'll want to pre-order book #2 for by the end of this installment."



My review of book #2, The Last Dream Keeper: "One of the real joys of reading this book is the character groundwork laid out in Witches of Echo Park. With basic personalities and relationships established in book one, Last Dream Keeper really gets to deepen our sense of each of these women, as well as project them even more emphatically along their character arcs. The questioning of loyalties takes deeper root as the story unfolds. There's a lot of payoff for the connections and threads that may have seemed, based on a quick or surface-level read of Witches of Echo Park, simply there to flesh out the world or characters, and this payoff is extremely rewarding as a reader.


In addition to the character exploration and development here, everything is more intense: stakes, tension, scale of impact, horror. There were parts of this story that were so horrific and haunting that they created a visceral reaction in me. And, for the last 100 pages or so, I mostly chanted a mantra of "HOLY SHIT. No, that can't-- Holy shit." (Pro Tip: Make sure when you near the page 200 mark, you're prepared to finish the rest of the book in that sitting.) The ending leaves plenty of cliffhangers, and the fate of many in the balance, though book two's story arc hits where it intends to at the conclusion.

The descriptions, as they were in Witches of Echo Park, are very often stunning. When used in regards Echo Park itself these descriptions are consistently reverent and detailed and familiar and, when these descriptions are used to ramp up the terror factor, they get dark and chilling really quickly. The descriptions of the more heightened uses of magic are surreal and cinematic, making very ethereal concepts extremely visual in the mind's eye.

This is a series where the characters make the world more interesting, and the world makes the characters more interesting. The lighter, happier moments are born out of the women connecting in very supportive and meaningful ways. I was especially partial to Lyse and Lizbeth's relationship, but all of their connections, with each other and with other people in their lives, are interesting. The work done to sharpen each of the leading ladies as flesh-and-blood characters on the page, and to enhance our understanding of their relationships with each other and their lens on the world at large, is fascinating and well-crafted. As the best witch stories do, this novel highlights a lot of truths about our own world, including but not limited to the capacity for women to work together toward greater ends and support each other, and the kind of fear-mongering and oppression that should be outdated but can be seen in our society at large.

If you haven't started this series yet, go grab Witches of Echo Park and The Last Dream Keeper, snuggle in with a quilt and your hot beverage of choice, light a candle, and get reading."

You better believe I've already pre-ordered The End of Magic.

The Girl in the Flammable Skirt, Aimee Bender




This is my favorite short story collection. Aimee Bender has been such a tremendous influence on me as a writer, which is interesting because I didn't especially connect with her work the first go-around. Her ability to slip between the strange, even fantastical, and the mundane is something I've incorporated more and more into my own writing. Her voice and style are stunning. And, without overtly drawing attention to it, she has some really interesting display of female narratives throughout a lot of her work. One of the included stories, "The Healer," is my favorite short story of all time.

Fahrenheit 451, Ray Bradbury



It's a classic for a reason. While it's not what I would by any means call a happy read, the writing itself is gorgeous and the themes are both haunting and valuable to engage with.

Wuthering Heights, Emily Bronte




This was the first novel that ever taught me your main characters didn't have to be likable. I credit a lot of my love for this book to an amazing high school English teacher who made it utterly engaging. The fact that Cathy and Heathcliff are unabashedly selfish and reckless people blew my mind as a young teen writer and expanded my concepts of writing in a lot of really important ways.

You're Never Weird on the Internet (Almost), Felicia Day




And here we have my favorite memoir, a birthday gift from my husband. I absolutely devoured this book. Here's my Goodreads review: "It's funny and geeky and relatable. From finding her home with an Internet community to dealing with anxiety and depression, there's so much in here that I connected with personally. And, having gotten this as a gift on my 26th birthday and read it right before starting my PhD program, I think it was perfect timing. Felicia Day touches on a lot of smart points about perfectionism, driving yourself into the ground, being a creator, and letting yourself take stock of where you are and where you want to be. I especially recommend it to anyone in their 20s and anyone who considers themselves a nerd, but I think that there's a lot of insight and humor here for just about any reader. If you've been on the fence about buying this memoir: Do it."

Yes, Please, Amy Poehler




There are lots of reasons to pick this up. Like Day's memoir, it's definitely funny and relatable. You can pick it up if you already love Amy Poehler and her work--whether that's Parks and Rec or Amy Poehler's Smart Girls. It's especially engaging if you're already a fan of hers, but I think there's a lot to connect to either way.

Garbage, A.R. Ammons




This is a book I had to read my freshman year of college and I found myself marking it up constantly without even thinking. The line work and use of breath is fantastic.

Forty Rules of Love, Elif Shafak



My Goodreads review: "Stunningly written and emotionally provocative." To expand a bit, Shafak's writing is stylistically some of the best that I've read. This novel does quite a bit of jumping around--between characters, from one time and place to another. I was especially invested in the characters of the past because they felt so complex in a deeply human way. There's a lot of different things for people of different tastes to appreciate in this one, I think, and, to me, it's worth it to read for the lovely writing alone.

Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self, Danielle Evans



Evans' command of voice, dialogue, and the form of the short story are all not only enjoyable to read, but also an excellent study of craft if you're a writer yourself. This is another one that very much benefits from subsequent readings that let you deepen your understanding of what Evans is pulling off, as well as notice different aspects of the stories themselves.

Bone, Jeff Smith




This is another one of those "right up my alley" ones. It's a huge volume of graphic novel. Fantasy, strong female characters--seeing a pattern here? Thorn and her grandmother are amazing, but Bone is such a wonderful character as well. (Bartleby may be my favorite though. That might be weird. I probably don't care.) It's a great adventure tale that lets you get really invested in the story over a long plot.

Spell on Wheels, Kate Leth + Megan Levens + Marissa Louise




My blog review of this series is here.

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So... that ended up being a really, really long post. Which of these would you like to give a try? What are your favorite books?



Wednesday, April 5, 2017

Current Novel: Strange High

I made these today as part of a pitch contest on Twitter, and I thought I should share them here! They're pitches for Strange High, the queer YA fairy tale you might've heard me mention a few times here and there. (Think something along the lines of Steven Universe and Of Bees and Mist, with maybe a bit of Aimee Bender flavor.)

What do you think? Have a favorite protagonist yet? Let me know!